Psalm 37:5-6

Commit your way to the Lord, trust in him and he will do this. He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Jacqueline Law the Artist

Recently, the artist Jacqueline Law has died due to the pancreas cancer, in which she
recorded a video and left some messages before she left the world to Jesus.

She has a very strong faith in God even though she experienced a lot of difficulties and disasters in her life. According to her interview on the TV show, she shared her experience and faiths: suffering great financial loss from her real estates during the period of the financial crisis in 1998, becoming a Christian in the next year, becoming  permanent deaf due to the diving in the deep sea in the next few years, suffering from the depression in 2008, and finally being diagnosed for the pancreas cancer in 2010... all happens to her are all sored, bitter and painful. When nobody can understand her pains from the deaf, she felt like that she couldn't survive with the daily pains, but one day she saw the light from Jesus, Jesus came to her and became a human and talked with her, comforted her, held her to Him, Jesus requested her to love him more,  told her in her every situation, Jesus would be with her! The most touching part to me is ... " Jesus told her that when the pain came, was to Jesus first then her! ". 
Oh, what should we do? we are the creations from God, but He is so humble to ask a human to love him, Jesus is already in the Kingdom of God in the heaven.  He need not care about who loves Him, right? It means that Jesus loves us very much, He cares about us!

During the last stage of her cancer, she knew that she was going to die so she recorded the video and asked everyone to believe in God, she was such a strong woman and she didn't have fear to death. To her, death is nothing, heaven is the final place that she will go.  What was her influence? I strongly believe that if she has no Jesus in her life, she might commit suicide. But from her disasters, she experienced God's love and grace.

I think about myself, how many times do I totally trust God if I come across difficulties? I think I should learn more from her.


Sunday, June 3, 2012

Praise God

Praise God! My mid-term of the insurance course is over! It isn't hard, and I believe I could get good marks. Can't believe that I have already finished 2 courses already, and there are still 8 left.

God is awesome, He has been giving me strength, energy to deal with everyday challenges..
Since I moved to Canada, there were too many new things for me to learn.  Learning French, having insurance courses, having new Business courses at the same time seem to be difficult for a homemaker, but with God's grace and loves, I can manage everything!
I know God has a perfect plan for me that I should take my insurance course, He knows my future and He has His plan too! I think it will be a good career for me to help people besides making money. I trust His plan is the best for me !



Thursday, May 17, 2012

Road test

" Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything be prayer and petition, with thanksgivin, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." (Philippians 4:6-7)


God, you love me so much, thanks very much for your mercy and protection. Today I finally passed my road test and got my driving license. I remember I failed in the first test, I was so disappointed... then when I failed again, I became very frustrated and feel so bad as concern people will judge me as stupid person..
I was too eager to get the driving license since I have been working on driving for almost a year.. It isn't easy for me to practice like everyday, accordingly to the rule, I can drive on that condition that there is another full licensed driver sitting next to me, and no passenger. It is so challenging for me as every time I have to find someone babysit the kids when I practise with my husband.

Remember when I first got into the car, and learned how to drive with my driving instructor, I was too nervous that I over-controlled the car. The driving instructor already told me that I might have to take longer than other people due to my character. In the driving course, it only provides 10 hours on the road and 25 hours in the classroom, which is insufficient for a brand new driver. It can be very good that you can practice with your friend, your spouse.. but it may be hard for Man to take me out base on our situations.

God really knows us very well and He reads my mind.  So He sent an angel to me- Margot, who is the leader  from the mother's club in my church. She called me during the summer and we talked about my driving process. She proposed me to practice with her so that I can gain more experience, and she fully understands the limitation of a homeworker.  Starting last Oct, she always took me out to practise driving. I was so calm and relax when driving with her. With her encouragement, I was able to remove my fears on driving.. Margot is a mom of ten children. I can't believe she can always scarifies her time in order to help people. She almost taught me 20 hours, in which it made a huge difference. She taught me more than the instructor did.

Unbelievable, without God, I won't know her. I can see Jesus from her, and her passion for helping people inspires me very much.  Every time when we get into the car, we will pray together to ask God's presence, wisdom and protection.

God has been teaching me, shaping me up through my driving learning experience;  I was too focus, too eager to get my driving license, I got very upset when I failed the test. But I totally forgot that what I should have to learn from those mistakes and experience. God again talks me in different way, thru sermons from pastors, from His words.  He wants me to be a good driver, I can know my weakness, problems during the road test. I should have faith on Him, trust Him that He would give me the right time.

" I can do all things through Christ who strenghthens me." ( Philippians 4:13).
"For God is working in you, giving you the desire and the power to do what
 pleases him." ( Phillippians 2:13)
" Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything be prayer and petition, with thanksgivin, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." (Philippians 4:6-7)

In the world, people judge people base on their successes, their appearance, their abilities, their wealth, their status. But God never, He never looks at our failures,
our appreances. Because of our weakness, God's power and strength can be revealed. He makes us to be completed. When I too focus that passing a test or not, He tells that it is not the first priority. He loves me so much and He will feel sad if I feel sad, but He knows what the best is for me, He tells me to lean on Him, seek for Him first before I persue from the world.  I hope this blog can help myself to follow Him in His way.

I suddenly think, what will be the road test in my life? Of course I need Jesus, He is my headlight and my GPS, I won't be lost in His path.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

making your own choice?

Recently Moses's classmate formed a small group called " adventure brothers", Moses is invited to be part of it. It is an idea that the boys can meet twice a month on one Saturday afternoon, and it will take turn for the parents to host the meeting.
There are total 7 boys so far. The 1st meeting was at one of the classmates' house, they played together in their yard, and then hiked together in the park. I like it so much as they can enjoy the nature together.

Last week, it was the 2nd meeting, one of the mom was the host, then she suggested having a Zombie party, kids are required to dress up and make up like a dead man, then they walk together in a park.
When I received the invitation, I feel so uncomfortable. As Christians, I believe that we shouldn't imitate devils, dead men.  At the beginning, Moses was so excited to tell me that they were gonna have 2nd meeting. I immediately told him that I dislike that idea as God doesn't favour this kind of behavior. Then Man said it is hard to reject them, and Moses might have difficulties to get along with people from the other community.

I prayed to God to change the situations during our small group. When it was Saturday afternoon, I asked Moses to be ready to go to that party, He then said to me :" I thought You don't allow me to go ." I said :" since it is a meeting of your adventure brothers, if you really love to go, I can let you go but I won't let you dress up anything like dead person." . Then he replied to me :" I don't want to dress up like dead person, and I also don't want to go. I know what you mean.". I am so glad that he understands so much. At that moment, I strongly feel that Holy Spirit is protecting his heart, and with us. I know when he said "no", he was willing not to go, not forced by me. Since he is old enough to understand more about God,  I have been educating him that he has to make right choices. I know that I won't be with him forever, but when Jesus is inside his little heart, he learns what the good values, good choices are. But when we raise up our children in God's way, I think they won't be so bad when they grow up, even though one day he leaves God, he will return to Him because Holy Spirit is with us forever and forever. As learned from Bible, we cannt lean on the world, we have to lean on God. The world has been changing but God never changes!

Jesus, please protect their hearts.

Romans Chapter 9-10

In our small group for Bible study, we have been reading the Romans chapter for few months, last week we finished chapter 10. 
It is so encouraging that God didn't love Israel only, but also we the gentiles. God's mercy is everywhere.

Romans 9:15 - " I will have mercy on whom I have mercy, and I will have compassion on whom I have compassion." and Romans 9:17 " I raised you up for this very purpose, that I might display my power in you and that my name might be proclaimed in all the earth. Therefore God has mercy on whom he wants to have mercy, and he hardens whom he wants to harden. " . It is so clear!
Whenever I think about my mom and my siblings, friends who haven't yet believed to God, I feel so sad, I am just like Paul that his heart's desire and prayer to God for the Israelites is that they may be saved.  Sometimes their hearts are so hard that rejected Jesus again and again. But God has his promises, and when it is His time, He will have mercy on them.
Being Christians, we have the responsibilities to preach His Gospels, Romans 10:15- " How beautiful are the fee of those who bring good news!"  When I find that people have hopeless, feel depressed, discouraged, God is their hope but they don't know how, where to fill up their holes in their bottom of hearts.

I ever had a big hole in my heart, before I became a Christian, I always felt so lonely at the midnight even though at that time I had my husband as my boyfriend. NOBODY is like Jesus, who can give us the unconditional loves forever and forever. Though we believe that we love our children, spouses or parents with unconditional loves, it isn't true.. We don't know if we change when deal with some situations that we don't like.
We are human, we have sinful; When I read from Romans chapter, I again and again feel so blessed by God, His promise, He never leave us alone.

Romans 10:11 - " Everyone whol calls on the name of the Lord will be saved."


Sunday, May 13, 2012

Grand opening of this blog

Today it is mother's day, and it is 5:28 in the evening. My husband has brought me the lobsters for our supper but I suddenly got a recipe for lobster soup. I plan to make the lobster soup by using those lobster shells, I think it must be so yummy.

While He is on the way to buy the tomato paste with the boys, I can have a quiet time to sit down in front of the computer. Maybe Holy Spirit is talking to me that I should write more about God in the blog. Yes, isn't it amazing that I create another blog for God on the mother's day?

God has perfect plan for everyone in their lives and so do I. Every moment I feel so blessed by God. Today Pastor Kathy had a wonderful sermon, in our lives, we will be in different stage during the race, sometimes you may be in a valley, which we cannot see any hope and light. But through Jesus Christ, He is the savior, He died for us for our sins and we just pass all our burdens to Him. Actually are we deserved? Absolutely not!  What happen He can be so mercy to die for us and save us ? Because He is the creator, our God father, He knows everything and He hopes we can turn back to Him. It has to be back to the beginning of the world and all His plan.
I pray that God can give me energy, strength and wisdom so that I can know how to walk with Jesus everyday.